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I was going to write about my boring week. As it turned out there was more excitement in my week than planned. I got fired. Whether it's because I was at the end of my 30-day trial period, or because I did something wrong, or because I was making tons of mistakes...I don't know. Maybe all of those.

It shouldn't have come as a shock, but it kind of did. I frequently asked for feedback, and was told every time that I was doing fine and "it takes at least six months" to get used to the work. So I plugged along and did my best, and didn't think anything of it. So yeah, I was a bit surprised to be fired. Maybe also because I've just never been fired before. But there's a first time for everything.

I'm sorry to have wasted so much time training for something I'm no good at.

Anyway, with that, I've decided not to write this blog any longer (for the forseeable future). After the circus ended there were people who wanted me to keep writing. Why, I've no idea. No one is entertained by reading about my sorry life. It was interesting when there was a journey to share, and that's over now. I had promised to transfer the circus parts of my blog over to WordPress, and with one thing and another I just haven't had the time or patience. Maybe that will happen in the future, maybe not.

The bottom line is, I need to step away for a while, for me. This blog was made for a very specific purpose: to share an adventure. So, if I am fortunate enough to go on any more adventures, I will come back here and share them with you again. But until that time, I'll be switching back to my older, private, diary-style LJ account (the username is in the comments below if you'd like it). I won't be leaving LJ, but I won't be posting here for a while. I'm sorry to end it this way, but I need some time to myself.

Thank you for reading, whatever your reasons. Best wishes.


Feb. 25th, 2018 09:35 pm (UTC)
See you down the road :)
I'm so sorry that happened. I will dearly miss your posts, which I very much enjoyed since you continued them after the circus. There are people out there, myself included, who could relate to your struggles while carving out a life for yourself after your dream job ended. I wish you all the best in what comes next. :)
Feb. 26th, 2018 03:24 am (UTC)
Re: See you down the road :)
Thank you. I'm surprised to hear that there are some people who still wanted to read the post-circus stuff. While I appreciate that and am thankful that the posts carry some interest, I still think I need to step away at least until I get my life together. In writing this blog I always try to keep it "real yet positive", so I end up leaving out a lot of how I actually feel...because in the end, I'm a REALLY dark pessimist. There's a lot of frustration and pain that I have to choke back when I write here. I end up thinking, "How can I show how angry I am right now, without saying what I really want to?" That's not how I want to write.

So I will take a break. If anything of interest happens, that might bring people some happiness or take them on another adventure, I'll happily write here again. But until that time I'm going to step away, and go back to another private LJ that I've kept since long before the circus.

Thank you so much for reading. I am glad that you came on this journey with me. With any luck I will have more real-life stories for everyone someday :)