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I was going to write about my boring week. As it turned out there was more excitement in my week than planned. I got fired. Whether it's because I was at the end of my 30-day trial period, or because I did something wrong, or because I was making tons of mistakes...I don't know. Maybe all of those.

It shouldn't have come as a shock, but it kind of did. I frequently asked for feedback, and was told every time that I was doing fine and "it takes at least six months" to get used to the work. So I plugged along and did my best, and didn't think anything of it. So yeah, I was a bit surprised to be fired. Maybe also because I've just never been fired before. But there's a first time for everything.

I'm sorry to have wasted so much time training for something I'm no good at.

Anyway, with that, I've decided not to write this blog any longer (for the forseeable future). After the circus ended there were people who wanted me to keep writing. Why, I've no idea. No one is entertained by reading about my sorry life. It was interesting when there was a journey to share, and that's over now. I had promised to transfer the circus parts of my blog over to WordPress, and with one thing and another I just haven't had the time or patience. Maybe that will happen in the future, maybe not.

The bottom line is, I need to step away for a while, for me. This blog was made for a very specific purpose: to share an adventure. So, if I am fortunate enough to go on any more adventures, I will come back here and share them with you again. But until that time, I'll be switching back to my older, private, diary-style LJ account (the username is in the comments below if you'd like it). I won't be leaving LJ, but I won't be posting here for a while. I'm sorry to end it this way, but I need some time to myself.

Thank you for reading, whatever your reasons. Best wishes.

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(Anonymous)
Feb. 25th, 2018 08:16 pm (UTC)
Even if you don't make it public, keep it as a diary with photos. It is good "therapy", I think. I have one for 33 years, started on Apple II computer, now on private blogger.
taz_39
Feb. 26th, 2018 03:18 am (UTC)
I actually do have a private LJ here that was started LONG before the circus...back in 2008, when I had just begun grad school. I faithfully documented school, and my gay roommates, and our adventures, and performances, and auditions and jobs etc etc. I wrote there every year up until joining the circus. I'll probably just switch back to that.

I like to write. It's just that this blog was started with a purpose, which was to share circus life. My other blog was a place to vent, and work out my struggles. So I'll go back to that, because that's what's needed now.

If anything exciting happens to me again, that I think would be fun for others to experience, I will come back to document it here. For example, going on another tour! Or joining a professional orchestra! (Two dreams of mine) But until then I think it's best if I step away for a while.

Thank you for reading!
taz_39
Feb. 26th, 2018 03:41 am (UTC)
Definitely!